Sorry for the slow bit of posts the past two weeks. You know, people tell you that you will be tired when you get pregnant, but you really cannot grasp just how tired you are until you experience it!
This leads me to why I have been feeling bad. I love my guild. I love raiding. I do not love my raid times since we moved. My body HATES my raid times. When I was in CA, there was no real issues with raiding. Being only at 9 at night, it was not really that bad. However, since we moved to Texas and raid times now are at 11 at night for me, this has become a problem. So currently this is my raid schedule:
Monday 10 man – 9:15pm-11:30pm
Wednesday 25 man – 11pm-2am
Thursday 10 man – 9:15pm-11:30pm
Friday 25 man – 11pm-2am
Saturday 10 man – 9:30pm-11:30pm.
This used to be no problem for me, even when I was working and going to school. Now, I can make it to the 10 mans (though I am visibly sluggish) and last the entire raid. As for 25’s, well those are a bigger problem. Last Wednesday I wrote my raid leader to say that my husband and I will not be able to make those ones anymore, but we would make Fridays. I know he does not care, and completely understands, but I felt BAD. There are many reasons as to why I do. For one, we are short on healers and my husband and I are both healers. Much of this is due to burn out and some of it is due to healer inexperience. I know this is not MY fault, but I feel like I am leaving the raid and my raid leader high and dry. However, after talking to a few of the other raiders, other ladies in the guild, and my husband, we all felt it was best that I take Wednesdays off (this is another good thing, because with my job I am required to work the first Thursday of the month at 6am and going to bed at 2 and getting up at 5….well that is just no good for anybody)
So now we are off on Wednesdays we are off! Great, one extra day of sleep for me. Now, flash to last Friday. I was sick in the stomach throughout the day and was trying to take it easy. After dinner, my husband and I were hanging on the couch and I remember watching some TV. I woke up a bit later to him covering me in a blanket and turning off all the lights. We were going to play Starcraft a bit before raid, but I guess I passed out on him. No biggie! I thought a nap would be nice before raid anyway. However, this nap turned into sleep. My husband never woke me up because he felt I needed the rest and because I was sick that day. So add another absence from me!
When my husband work me up about midnight to move me to the bed, I realized what time it was and again felt horrible! I know I was sick and tired and I should not feel that way, But I guess that is how I am with my guild. I hate to disappoint. They never not run without us there, we just use some secondary specs, but I cannot help but wonder if some people get mad when we do not show up.
But real life comes before WoW. Need I say it again? Real life comes before WoW. Therefore, my much needed sleep comes before raid. Sucks, but true!
September 14, 2010
Sarindre
Through the Eyes of a Tree 
8 responses to “Feeling Bad.”
zelmaru
September 14th, 2010 at 08:55
When I was pregnant I slept so much that I think I let my wow subscription lapse. It is just DRAINING.
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sarindre
September 14th, 2010 at 09:26
It is so funny to me because everyone said that during the second trimester the fatigue gets better…and that is just a cruel joke! 🙂
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zelmaru
September 14th, 2010 at 09:28
It got better the 2nd trimester only in the sense that the first trimester MIGRAINES went away. The second trimester still sucked. The third was worse. Women who just bounce along and love being pregnant are weirdos.
I told my husband when Twig emerged that I’d be much better equipped to deal with the rigors of a newborn if I hadn’t just spent the last 9 months pregnant and JUST given birth. It’s like a cruel joke. (Can you tell that I’m NOT having another?)
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sarindre
September 14th, 2010 at 09:41
Oh the migraines! I have chronic migraines anyway and had to go off my medication because it was a blood thinner. That was a sad day. I worked with a woman who up until the day she gave birth would prance around in her high heeled boots and mini skirts. She was like the poster child for perfect pregnancy. She gave me false hope and now I wanna slap her!
My husband keeps telling me that I need to sleep now because I will get none when the baby is born. I laugh at him and say that I have been in charge for 9 months, when this baby is out it is his turn! 🙂
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dvotee
September 14th, 2010 at 09:06
I think that you answer your own reservations in the your last comment.
Whilst it is admirable that you feel bad not only for yourself but for your guild as well, it’s a shame that not everyone has the dedication that you appear to have but yes it is only a game and you obviously must ensure that you get enough rest during this exciting time.
I’m sure your raid leader will totally understand but it is so hard to let go as we all become so immersed in the game that it does take over.
Im my opinion go easy on yourself and enjoy your pregnancy and don’t worry too much, if your guild/raid members are also your ‘true’ freinds they will understand and make allowances.
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sarindre
September 14th, 2010 at 09:28
Thank you for the advice! I plan on taking it slow and convincing myself that feeling bad for something that is truly out of my control does not help anyone. But you are completely right, and all of my good friends in the game have told me not to worry and to take care of myself. I love my good friends.
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Lath
September 14th, 2010 at 17:29
You poor thing that the tiredness has kept on going 😦 I’m still throwing up but I got my energy back at about week 16 so could thankfully return to raiding (and stop living like a hermit!). Then again I don’t think I could stay up until 2am and I DEFINITELY couldn’t be at work at 6am the next day! I think you definitely did the right thing giving Wednesdays a miss.
When I started raiding again I made myself a promise that the bub and I came first – if I didn’t have time to eat a proper dinner before raid, or if I found myself skipping food, feeling sick or anything I would stop playing again. So far its been good and I hope I can keep it up until the expansion ends.
One more thing that I think has really helped with my pregnancy (I’m not in heels but I have gone from being depressed and exhausted to my old self with better hair and nails!) is that I go to the Osteopath every 4 – 6 weeks. They realign your hips, spine, neck and jaw and I found that I stopped getting headaches completely and also haven’t had any niggling back or hip pain since starting at 14 weeks. If your getting heartburn they can also help with that – overall I think it’s been well worth the money!
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sarindre
September 16th, 2010 at 07:51
Oh no! Still throwing up is horrible! 😦 I know there are a ton of foods that made me sick that I will never be able to eat again. After going to bed last night at 10:30, I am really glad that I am missing Wednesday raids, not that I am super awake today, but I feel MUCH better.
I agree that the baby and I come first. I have gotten sick during a 10 man before (right before a boss pull) and had to excuse myself for a little bit. No one seemed to mind! 🙂
Osteopath huh? That sounds wonderful! It helps with heartburn!? That is the greatest idea in the whole world. Heartburn is so annoying! Oh and my nails are great nowadays! =P Crazy the things a baby does to your body huh?
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